Last Tuesday we had another doc appointment and we heard our baby's heart beat for the first time. It was so amazing. I can't believe how strong, loud, and fast it was. Hearing the heart made everything seem a lot more real. Now I know we really are having a baby and I'm not just getting chubby. We've "known" for a couple months now, but everything seems so surreal, and the whole idea of growing another life is so magical, that it really has been hard for me to comprehend. Hearing that little heart is exactly what I needed to solidify this whole experience. I can't wait to be a mom, and even more, I can't wait for Zac to be a dad. He is going to be the most amazing dad in the world. He already is. He takes such good care of me and the little baby and I feel so blessed to have him.
On another positive note.... there is light at the end of the tunnel. At the beginning of the week I was so miserable and exhausted, but by the end of the week I felt a ton better. I still feel sick every once in a while, but 70-80% of the time I feel great. Also, I have been sleeping fabulously. 6-7 hours a night, thanks to the Ambien my doc decided to put me back on. We're just finishing up our first trimester and I have high hopes from here. I can't wait to see what our second trimester brings.... I'm guessing more weird dream, terribly random food cravings, and hopefully some restored energy. Wish me luck!
The above picture is a totally candid shot Isaiah took of me the other day at the gym. I was so sick and exhausted, and I didn't have an appointment so I dozed off on the ball for a couple minutes. Everyone says that around 12-14 weeks they start feeling so much better. NOT TRUE! I'm feeling yuckier and yuckier every day. I started taking Unisom and B6 at 6 weeks, and then at 9 weeks I needed something stronger so they gave me Phenegren, and last night I was so desperate for some sleep I took an Ambien, which my doc gave me the "ok" to do every now and then... STILL DIDN'T SLEEP! Most everyone knows I'm an insomniac and pregnancy has made it even worse. I'm not sure if it's the sickness, the freakin' weird dreams when I do fall asleep, the fact that I have to pee non stop and can't fall back to sleep, the yucky cold I can't seam to shake, the fact that we just had the busy Holiday Season, having to wake up at 4 am every day for work, trying to run a company and manage employees, and now I have payroll tax, sales tax, and our annual taxes that I need to get done this week, or maybe it's all of that combined with the added stress of being a parent soon and having absolutely no idea how to take care of a baby. Whatever it is, I'M EXHAUSTED and on the verge of tears every second. I love our baby so much and feel bad for being grumpy during pregnancy thus far, but right now I need to vent a little. Please forgive me. On a happier note, we have another doc appointment tomorrow. We should get to hear the cute little heart beat! I'll keep you posted.